A Woman in the Making

I stumbled upon this scribble that I had put up at my work blog some two years back. Here it goes - It always gives me an instant high whenever the topic on life crops up. I am intrigued with the idea of life and its experiences. Let me run you through a text message that I received recently (no offense to any country though). It made me contemplate further about life. When USA launched in space, their PEN didn’t write in zero gravity. So they spent 12 Million dollar and 10 yrs to find a pen that would write in low gravity. And do you know what Russia did? They used PENCIL! Moral: Life is very simple; don’t complicate. Use simple ideas. J I liked it very much; but it also made me to run through my life instances where I made my life complicated- is it so? No! I never made it intricate. Though my friends feel that I have the most complicated life, I prefer to cherish the fun and learning experiences through them.  After a series of incidents in my life I firmly believe and pract...

When the whole world came crashing down When I knew I had nowhere to go When life turned its back towards me When fate had questions thrown for me I stood there stranded when you looked at me I didn’t have to say a word about me You knew what I needed the most You made sure I was over the worst World had gone past the fast-forward button People have no time or energy for anyone You had all the time to wipe my tears Be my strength and ride away the fears God knew I needed somebody precious To take me away from the vicious However long I walk the path of life Indebted to you for bringing back the innate rife May not come across anybody like you for life

Zindagi itni aage bad chuki hai Kuch bhi sochne ka waqt nahin Par jab bhi mein apne aap ke saath baiththi hoon Mujhe sirf tumhari hi yaad athi hai In tanhaiyon mein tum iss tarah ghul gaye ho Ki yeah rang dil se mitutha nahin Aaj bhi hum apni zindagi ke bare mein sochthe hain Toh tum aag ki simton se sulag kar aa jaathe ho Tumhari bahoon ki garmi aaj bhi mujhe thandak dilathi hai Tumhari saanson ki aahat aaj bhi dil dhadkaathi hai Kahan gaye woh din, jab tumhe mere bina neend nahin aati thi Kahan gaye woh karvatein, jo meri baahon se shuru aur khatam hote they Aaj iss akelepan mein ek baath ka faisla ho gaya Tum bhale hi kitni   bhi dhoor kyun na chale jao Kisi aur ki baahon mein panah kyun na le lo Mujhse mera woh pyar, tum chah kar bhi chcheen nahin sakthe Tumhara woh pyar, main bhool kar bhi tumhe lauta nahin sakthi

After contemplating for long I figured out the best reasons for being single again. No offence to 'husbands.'   1. My social networking profile is much more honest now. 2. I can watch my favourite movie, all days, anytime during the day. 3. I don’t have to compromise on my favourite top for a shirt for him while shopping. 4. My parlour visits can increase by any numbers without worrying about giving reasons. 5. I don’t have to call him everyday from work. 6. Cricket matches don’t bore me anymore. 7. I can talk to ‘my’ family anytime, anywhere without being watched or over-heard. 8. I am free to plan my day with my girl friends. 9. I don’t have to put up with wet towel on the bed. 10. Most importantly, my MIL too is ‘ex’ now…..Wowwww! Now this is amazing ;) Many more can still be added. For now, I am basking on my happiness over the last point. :) 

Independence day. I remember it as a day when I used to rush to school early morning to witness the flag hoisting, collect Eclairs toffees in school along with the flag to be pinned to my school shirt, come back home and watch the repeat telecast of the Independence Day program on Doordarshan. And, my day was done. Usual homeworks, lots of reading for final exams, washing my cycle, polishing my shoes for the next day school occupied me for the rest of the day. This was it. My Independence Day. Today is Independence Day again. My day started over various facebook comments, newspaper articles, one or two Independence Day messages (because sms costs today), various  first-time recently-released movies on numerous television channels, forgot the most important part, caught up with lost sleep....just another leave on the calendar after continuous working days. So,  Am I celebrating the freedom? What patriotism have I displayed today? What does independence mean to me? And, most i...

It hurts when you don’t speak to me It tears me when you avoid meeting me My thought revolves around our times together So what if we don’t meet regular At times my mind rules my thought And suggests me not to talk But when I see your name in my mobile I dial your number listening to my heart Am tired trying all tricks to calm you My hope gives up after attempts a few But the only thought that fears me Is I should be there when you need me My belief persuades me going Your love keeps me luring With each passing day I realize You are worth the wait just as each sunrise

Mein aapko roz dekhti thi Par aap par nazar kabhi nahin ruki Uss raath andhera tha, sannata tha Paas mein koi nahin tha Tum bole jaa rahe they Hum sochte jaa rahe they Achanak aapki baton se ehsaas hua Ki aap humse apni mohabbat ka izhaar kar rahe ho Apne lafzon mein humein jakad rahe ho Humein zindagi se koi shikayat nahin thi Hum hawa ke saath behne ke liye tayyar they Humein apni bhavishya ki koi parvah nahin thi Akele hi apni duniya mein samas they Aapne apni baton se humare dil ke taaron ko phir se cheda Dil aur dimaag ko sochne par majboor kiya Woh pal bhi kya ajeeb tha, jab aapki nazar humari nazron se mili Humein pata bhi na chala ki kab dimaag dil se haar gaya

I was in love and you wanted to live with me right then. I too longed for you. Wanted to give you all the love. I always wanted a loving family with all the necessary relationships: loving husband, doting kids, understanding in-laws, above all, companionship. I could foresee all this happening if I got married to you. And finally, we married. There was no one around but I was crowded with you besides me. You smiled as soon as we got wedded. That was enough for me to keep going. Days passed. Months passed. Years passed…… Love too passed. Too many things crawled in. Endless shuddering stares, numerous silences, difficult nights. We were together without togetherness. I could make a list of endless missings in our lives: love, care, affection, passion. There was nothing common between us except kids and living under the same roof, for limited hours. I got a new look done, changed my wardrobe, cooked your favourite dishes, watched your kind of movies. But you were oblivious of me. I was...

Itne din tho hum sirf jee hi rahe the Dil ne dhadakna toh aapse milne ke baad seekha Zindagi ne kayi gam diye Humne unhe aasani se pee liye Par ek nasha hum jee hi nahi paa rahe Woh aur kuch nahin, aapke pyar ko Hum dil mein sil hi nahin paa rahe Aap par hum iss tarah fida hain Ki din aur raath ka patha nahin Din aur raath ko chodo Humein toh khud ka patha yaad nahin Zindagi se bas ek shikayath thi Kaash hum aapke dhadkan ban sakthe Aur ab jab ban gaye hain toh phir ek shikayat hai Kaash hum apni saasein bhi aapko de sakthe