A Change in Me


It’s a cliché yet true: Some things don’t change. How much ever you change your habits, routines, rituals, or even city, things don’t change. Nobody changes. Or rather YOU don’t change. Here I was trying to analyze what is happening in me, near me, around me, whatever.

It always made sense to me that I should do only that in which I believe. It was 48 days since I was alone and I wanted to conclude and decide. So, I shifted cities and I thought I was better off. I have left my past behind and I am now a new person, I am going to start a new life and so on. But was I right in my thoughts? Had I really succeeded?

Forget about a sea change but I can hardly see an ounce of difference in my life. That does not mean that I don’t have anything ‘happening’, yet there is something that is running at the back of my mind. I tried hard placing incidents in a sequence, thinking, analyzing; still couldn’t close the thought. That’s when I decided to deal with it my way: I closed the topic in my head.

It took me a while to come to terms but now I was in peace with myself. I knew I was handling the situation better than anybody. I was at peace thinking that somebody better was solving my issues. I had placed my life in somebody else’s hands, somebody more efficient, somebody more thoughtful, somebody more than a well-wisher and I knew I would be safe, as always. It was none other than God. I swear by Him. Now and always. 

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  1. Supriti BanerjeeOctober 17, 2012 at 5:56 PM

    Hey bharthi... i always love ur writting, good one..!! keep posting...:))

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  2. Bharathi BhaskarNovember 18, 2012 at 12:24 PM

    thanks so much!! expecting a lot from your blog as well :)

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