My Wait for YOU

I was in love and you wanted to live with me right then. I too longed for you. Wanted to give you all the love. I always wanted a loving family with all the necessary relationships: loving husband, doting kids, understanding in-laws, above all, companionship. I could foresee all this happening if I got married to you. And finally, we married. There was no one around but I was crowded with you besides me. You smiled as soon as we got wedded. That was enough for me to keep going.

Days passed. Months passed. Years passed…… Love too passed. Too many things crawled in. Endless shuddering stares, numerous silences, difficult nights. We were together without togetherness. I could make a list of endless missings in our lives: love, care, affection, passion. There was nothing common between us except kids and living under the same roof, for limited hours.

I got a new look done, changed my wardrobe, cooked your favourite dishes, watched your kind of movies. But you were oblivious of me. I was waiting for your one glance of love. But you deprived me of that look. The feeling of being needed was not there anymore. I was unhappy, unsatisfied, unfulfilled.

My heart had broken long back, but seeing it break every day brought more salt water to my longing eyes. It pained, terrible pain, unbearable pain. You knew my heart was breaking. You knew I was crying. You knew I had pinned hopes on you. You knew I had only you. But you never turned back to give me the smile that I had hoped would take care of me. You walked past me and didn’t return. Forever. 

Comments

  1. KARTHIKEYAJuly 28, 2011 at 9:58 AM

    good work....reality everyone expects the samething after marriage..but oly very few gets it

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  2. SaravananJuly 28, 2011 at 10:28 AM

    Bharathi, Love is an eternal feeling..love is unconditional...love is vulnerable too...but love cannot be the reason for your difficult times..it's the psychological feeling of love deprivation drove you to this state..so don't stop loving..

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  3. Narender V ReddyJuly 28, 2011 at 10:23 PM

    Very expressive. Dont know why we forget the only constant in life is change.

    Yeah its true that accepting a change in life is very difficult but on a given situation we have to...... to survive and to live happy.


    As days passes expectation, role, responsibility, behavior change. it doesn't mean love ended. Rather we have to bring change in self equally to be a great evergreen partner.

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  4. sonu rainaJuly 28, 2011 at 11:58 PM

    Dear keep writing its very nice to see you growing as a writer .....your feeling are true and u r writing form ur heart .....so keep posting whatever u r feeling .....good job

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  5. Supriti BanerjeeJuly 29, 2011 at 12:59 PM

    hey bharthi....

    beautiful presentation of words.. keep writing. all the very best.

    regards
    supriti banerjee

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  6. Bharathi BhaskarJuly 29, 2011 at 2:56 PM

    Hey, thanks all of you for your love :)

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  7. ArchanaFebruary 22, 2012 at 10:58 AM

    Trust me u made me cry...

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